I was in surgery to remove an AVM from above my right ear...brain surgery of all things! Crazy to think I even had brain surgery and it wasn't an easy one(is brain surgery ever easy?). I was in surgery for 7 hours!! When I woke up in recovery, I heard my doctor talking and heard the time and wow, I couldn't believe I was in surgery for that long. Once I figured out I was awake, I made sure to run down the names of my family members and move my arms and legs to make sure all was working...everything worked and I had my memory!
I was brought into icu and I had asked my nurse about my husband and my mom. Needless to say, I had the nurse from hell, she was not in a good mood. Throughout my life, I have used my sense of humor to get thru the good and the bad so of course, I tried using it on my nurse, but she just didn't get it. I made sure to give my feedback on her when I was able to function later. I know we all have bad days at work and my nurse was at the tail end of her shift when I came in, but really, I had just survived 7 hours of brain surgery!
So today always marks a huge day for me. I am still alive and I have use of all of my bodily functions and I have my memory intact(sometimes my husband wishes parts of my memory would have been lost..)but he too is very grateful that I made it thru the surgery. At the time of my surgery, my kids were 7, 5, and 18 months old. That was THE hardest morning for me ever in my life, hugging all of my kids before I left for the hospital. I am crying now just remembering that morning. Then as I was being rolled to pre-op, I had to say goodbye to my husband...my best friend since I was 14 years old, that was the scariest feeling and then I was alone in pre-op. All I could think of was I wanted to be asleep so I didn't have to feel so scared and alone, it took awhile for anyone to come in, felt like an eternity!
I am so grateful to my skilled surgeon. I can't believe I would have ever needed a neurosurgeon in my lifetime. But I am grateful for finding this ticking time bomb when I did, it was by a fluke chance that I had insisted on getting a CT scan. I don't have any noticeable scars, but the scar is from the middle of my forehead, all the way down the side of my head to the front of my right earlobe. I was actually shocked at first to see such a big incision, but heck, if that's what it took to get the AVM, then it's okay because I do not want to go thru that again!
I am here today with so much to be thankful for, that is why I live my life to the fullest everyday. It's not a cliche for me, it's a lifestyle!
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